the lesson ive learned, though, from this experience is to have faith in your own emotions judgements and opinions
i think this is a lesson of confidence because I’m constantly doubting myself and my own ideas. ive always been so easily swayed because i have no confidence in myself and my abilities
self doubt has always kept me from advancing onto better hobbies, lifestyles, and people
I’m constantly telling myself to “forgive forgive forgive forgive forgive forgive forgive forgive forgive forgive” over and over and over and over and over again. i cant emphasize how much i have told myself to but it makes me absolutely sick to my stomach how someone could fool me right in front of me and dismiss my claims and feelings as if I’m fucking crazy! and only when its too late then i find out that i was right
i was fucking right about every single hunch ive had
and to have someone make you feel like you’re crazy, irrational, and just try to chalk it up to jealousy, even though i knew exactly what emotions i was feeling. it wasnt jealousy nor paranoia it was betrayal and i had to witness it every single fucking time i went out
i acknowledge the apologies that have been said and regardless of its sincerity (i only question the sincerity because ive heard way too many apologies yet experienced way too many repeated mistakes) i get so upset and heated my blood boils and my hands shake and all i can think about is how badly i want to suck the shit out of 2 xanaxes and call it a night
and that ladies and gentlemen is resentment: exhibit a
Ha ha Cemetery. Harvey, New Brunswick, Canada
Photo credit: doc loplop
her whole career in the past like four years is show up to CW awards and pose for vogue.
whywhywhywhywhy do i have to deal with such mediocrity???
honestly don’t get it either
Anonymous said: So when are you going to let me buy you another shot?
ummmmmmmmmmmm when did u ever buy me a shot lol